Favorite posts

 Day 21 of the Challenge is a list of links to your favorite posts in your archives.

This is going to be a bit of a challenge for me because I recently just started blogging, so I don't have much. I have been blogging the most during this month , because of this challenge :p

But here it goes:

My favorite posts in my archive:

1. Lesson Learned
2. Falling in Love
3. Favorite Quote
4. A moment in Solitude

Being Diagnose with Hypothyroidism

When I was about 7 years old I was diagnosed with Hyper Hypothyroidism  I did not understand what it was, or what it went, or what it was doing to my body. I use to watch my mom cry every day because it was so chronic I couldn't walk because my joints were hurting so much. I remember that it was the first time I ever took a pill. I couldn't swallow it and that bitter taste in my mouth was AWFUL ! even thinking about it I can taste it in my mouth. The side effects were the worst. There were day when I couldn't get up from bed to go to school, I was sooo skinny my rib cage were showing and people would ask my mom why I was so thin. There was a lady who asked me once if my mom feeds me, and i just didn't know who to answer. I use to get random trembles, I would have ridiculous mood swings, and I believe during this time was when I first thought about suicide. I hated my self a bit. I didn't understand what was happening to my body or what I was going through. All I knew was that I was going to be like this for the rest of my life. 

Favorite Photo

I didn't really know what photo to choose for today's prompt because I love all my pictures. I am very photogenic and that's one of the things I love about myself. But I chose this one because this was a time in my life when I was fit and happy with myself. I was 18 years old here. My life was AWESOME. I also love how my body looks. My make-up was very nice, that was when I was all into make-up and I had a beauty channel on YouTube. I need to get this shape back ! ASAP ! 

"lot in life"

I really have no difficulties in my life right now. I don't have a perfect family, but I am blessed to have a loving mother, a roof over my head, I don't starve, my few friends are AWESOME, I'm in love... what more can I ask for ? I am pretty content with everything in my life. I don't have it all or the "best" but I am grateful for everything.

A Day in My Life

It's 7:00 pm and my day has literally ended. Yes, this early I am done with my daily routine. People think that because I live in NYC my life is busy... well this time of the year is not. Until next month, when I start going out a little bit more and it gets warmer. I am currently a full time student, I am unemployed and I live at home with my mom. I usually don't do much during the day besides go to school. I am hoping with in the next few week my routine will change. But for now this is a day in my life :

(excuse the low quality photos, my phone is horrible with pictures) 

My day doesn't usually start until 12:00 pm .. I know what your thinking "Oh that's the good life" Yea it kinda is for now :) I wake up.. brush my teeth, make my self a nice lil breakfast. Today I had a Cinnamon raisin bagel with cream cheese and carrot juice

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 12:30ish I do my May work-out challenge

Around 1:15pm : I start showering and getting my stuff ready for class. 

2:25 pm I start walking to the train station which is 5 blocks away from my house. I'm usually on the train by 2:35 pm. I rely on the MTA to take me everywhere, so I have to put up with delays, sick passengers  bible preachers, crying babies, and people begging for money. I usually just close my eyes and meditate for a bit. 

2:50 pm, I arrive at my stop. At time time the trains are crowed with kids coming out of school. Lucky I don't have to ride the crowed train. My class starts at 3:00 pm all the way until 6:00pm. I avoid rush hour while I am in class. 

6:45ish I am usually home. I get comfy, have a small snack and do the usual : Check my email, twitter, tumblr, instagram...ect. AND of course do my Blog Every Day In May Challenge. 

I spend the rest of the evening reading blogs, and just surfing the web. 

 9:00 pm I go to my room, read or study a bit, talk on the phone, do my nail, hair.. or whatever I have to do. 

I don't watch TV, much but I watch the Shaytards EVER SINGLE DAY , for the past 4 years. I have never missed a video, EVER ! YouTube is basically my "TV" 

The rest of my night (10:00pm - 1:00am) consist of YouTube, late dinner/snacks, reading and doing random stuff.

YUP... That's A DAY IN MY LIFE..

Not very interesting or fun, but I appreciate everything I have. Thank God I wake up everyday, able to breath, walk, talk, see, eat and ect, because not everyone has a chance to wake up the next morning. I am grateful for everything I have. 

ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR DAY LOVEY'S 

10 things that make me HAPPY ! :)

1. My Boyfriend Howard. 

2. Taking Photos. Photography is my Passion. 

3. The Shaytards, because when ever I feel down I can count on the to make me happy.

4. When my room is clean and smelling fresh 

5. Books

6. My dog Nina

7. Shopping for new clothes

8.Rain

9. Making other people happy

10. MONEY $$$$

Dear Public, Sorry, I'm not sorry

Dear Public (or who ever think I owe them and apology),
     I'm sorry, but I am not sorry. I'm not apologizing to anything I have done before. That is now in the past. If I ever said or did anything you didn't like, I'm not apologizing for it now. Why ? because its too late to undo the past. I probably said and did the things I did for a reason. I do not regret anything. I refuse to apologize for who I am. If you don't like who I am , I believe you shouldn't be part of my life. 

     My life, in a nutshell, has been nothing but me apologizing for who I am.
"Your too loud Dari." I'm sorry, I was feeling passionate.
"Why aren't you talking?" Sorry, I'm just tired.
     I'm not apologizing for being the moody person that I am. If you really knew me you would know my reasons and condition. I am content with who I am and what I do, and I do not dwell on the past. Accept me for who I am or GTFO my face :) 

Love , DARI 

xoxo

                                              

Something I miss ..

Recently I have learn not to get attached to things, to let go of the past, because whats not here in the moment you don't need in the future. God takes away and puts things in our lives for lessons. I use to think when I lost something my world was over, but actually loosing things that have been close to me has made me a stronger person today.

But if I had to say I miss something, it would be elementary school (P.S. 48M), Kindergarten all the way to fifth grade. I swear, those were the best years of my life. I get nostalgic everything I think back to those times. Those were the year were I discover who I was, what my talents were and who will mark my life for ever. My teachers were like my best friends, school was my escape from problems at home. There was nothing more amazing to me than getting up every morning, rain,snow or sunshine, to get to my "home". The only place I ever felt safe was there. I miss my teachers, I wish I could of kept them all through out Jr. High School and High School. I cant ever than them enough for teaching me that I am capable of doing anything and that I can be who ever I want. I miss the field trips. I miss the plays, spelling bee's, and all the events we had. I miss running down that hill on Broadway and just feeling all the joy in my heart. I miss school lunch and pizza parties and playing the violin, piano and recorder. I miss having the lead parts in the school plays. I miss being a leader, sports and arts, watching movies, going to the park ect. I miss not worrying about anything because i had the best role models to help me out in any problem. I have to say the last place I was ever treated good was at my elementary school. I thank my teachers for allowing me to discover my talents, and because of them I learned how to read in write. I miss them so much !



Happy Sunday and Happy Mothers Day to all the wonderful mothers, who's first priority has been their child(s) before anything. Happy Mothers Day to those mothers who play both role's, Specially my mom, who has been there for me through THICK AND THIN, and no matter how much of a bad daughter I have been she has never let me down. The strongest woman I know, she has been through so many things and till this day she has never gave up although she could of many times. My mother will always mean the world to me. I clearly cant picture my life with out her.

10 words

Happy Saturday to all !

Today's challenge is : Sell yourself in 10 words or less. 

So if I was up for sale and I had a sign that said 

Devoted
Creative 
Attractive
Compassionate 
Talented
Open Minded
Humorous 
Selfless
Idealistic
Strong

Would you buy me ? 

Embarrassing

Topic of the day is : Most embarrassing moment (s). Spill.

Ahh ! I really have so many embarrassing moments that I cant even think of one. I haven't got embarrassed in a long time because I don't get embarrassed by anything anymore.

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One I will never forget was when I was 7 years old. I lived in Washington Heights all my live. I basically knew everyone in the mile radius. My whole family live in the same neighborhood (like very other Dominican family). 

One day my mom took my brother and I to grocery shop at our local bodega. While she was busy getting things for the house, I was staring at a basket of Bubaloo gum. And like any 7 year old, I begged my mom to buy me some candy, and of course she said NO!  

I got really sad, and just kept staring at it and playing with the basket. I don't know what came to mind when I thought, maybe I should put 2 in my pocket and my mom will never notice, and i did so. I remember feeling nervous at first, but then after we left the store I felt a little better. 

When i got home, I rushed to my room and stood behind the door and opened the gum up and started chewing it. After minutes of chewing it, I went to the kitchen and my mom asked me what I was chewing.. I didn't know what to say. I had a mouth full of gum and no idea what explanation to give my mom. So I started crying, My mom had told me before that I should never steal for anyone or anything. At age 7 those thing were pretty clear. 

After crying so much, I told my mom I got it from the store. She asked me so many questions on how I got it. I told her the truth and she made me spit the gum out and take it to the store. Now that I think about it, it was so disgusting to do that, but i had to learn my lesson that way. I walked to the store with tears in my eyes and my mom yelling her lungs out at me. When we got to the store, she made me tell the clerk what I have done and that I was sorry for doing it and I will never do it again. 

It might not sound embarrassing but the way my mom came about it was really embarrassing. She made me feel like such a criminal and everyone was just staring at me while buggers and tears were running down my face. I felt like wishing the ground would swallow me up. Its funny how I can still remember the exact feelings of that day and play it clear in my head !  

A MOMENT IN SOLITUDE

This moment was actually earlier during the week. I decided to take a day out for myself, to reboot my mind. I grab my film camera, a book, an orange and water , and I headed to Central Park. I just had to disconnect my self a little from people and interact with my self and nature. 

“Your mind is like the water. When it is agitated it becomes difficult to see, but when you let it settle, the answer becomes clear.” -Master Oogway (Kung Fu Panda)

Advice to others

I am good at giving advice to other people, but when it come to applying them to myself i don't know what to do. Sometimes its better to follow your heart, because your heart usually knows more than you or anyone else. I always try to let my "gut" feeling decide, and most of the time its always right, but taking a little advice from someone who might already have been through the same experience wont hurt.

My advice to others is don't give up on what you want to do. Its never too late to start something you are really passionate about and want. I think the greatest secret of live is to not give up. NEVER GIVE UP ! and people might think that its a cliche, but THE SECRET TO LIVE ARE HIDDEN BEHIND THE CLICHES. The only way you will be successful at something is if you preserver it. The real secrets to live are WORK HARD AND NEVER GIVE UP !

If there is still oxygen in your lungs DO IT !!

 *I really don't know what advise to give other's, in fact today's prompt had me thinking a little bit too hard. All I have to say is be yourself. Blaze your own path. Listen to good advice and information and implement it, but only if it feels right and resonates with what you know instinctively to be true. If someone says something to you and your gut tells you that it’s wrong take a chance on your gut. Sometimes that gut feeling is the only signpost in the world that is pointing you toward the unique life and success that awaits you. The only person who can feel that inner knowing  for you, is you.

Advice is usually given from the head. I’ve learned to listen to my heart.

I want to share with you guys a song that has helped me out through my days.

I hope you enjoy it and it helps you as well.

My fears.

Yesterday I failed in blog everyday in may ..but today I shall continue ..

Today's prompt is things I am afraid of. I have a few fears and the ones I am going to list are the major ones. I have been through many things that I really dont fear anything. I have learned not to fear because fearing is bad. I am a courageous person , but you know everyone has something that makes them weak. 

• One of my biggest fear is loosing my mom. I cant imagine my life with out her. We have been through many rough stages and I admit I have not been a perfect daughter. I cant see myself with out her guidance, she always keeps me on the right track when ever im off. She has been my greatest support and the only person that has never left my side when I've been in major need. I cant really count on anyone besides her. 
• Fire- I have never been in a fire, but I have had close people to me who have lost everything in a fire. Im not afraid to losing material things, I am mostly afraid of being caught in a fire and not being able to get out on time and buring to death. 
• Walking on dark soletary streets- I think this is my second biggest fear. I have had bad experience walking on dark streets here in NYC, from being followed to getting robbed. I basically have to walk everwhere here and since I already has bad experience walking alone, I really fear that one day I'm just going to get robbed or kidnapped or possibly even killed and my biggest fear is my family never finding me if something happens to be (god fobbid). 
• Trains- There has not been a day in my life where I dont have to get on the train. My biggest fear is being underground in a train. I really start to panic when trains stop in between stops underground. I just never know what to expect, and now that all these terroist attacks area happening its even worst. About to weeks ago when the Boston Marathon bombing happend I was underground when the conductor annoce that the trains will be stopped because there is a bomb threat on the next stop (which was 42nd street). This had me in full anxiety mode, plus I had no service underground. For as long as i live in NYC I will be afraid of taking the train... too bad that I rely on the MTA everyday

oh my LOVE !

Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. What makes them great? Why do you love them? If you don't have blogger friends, talk about a real-life friend or even a family member :

Today's prompt is a bit challenging for me, because I am obviously not known in the blogging world and as you can see NO ONE follows my blog besides my friend Stacy who has and abandoned blog. I don't have any blog friends, but I do admire a few blogs starting with Jenni's ... Jenni's Blog is just AMAZING ! I cant help but read what she post everyday ! But today I am going to  publicly profess my love for my friend, boyfriend, my everything .. HOWARD ! 

My love for this guy just grows more and more everyday. Regardless of all the things we have been through he has never left my side. I love him because he always knows how to make me smile when I am having a rough day. He always looks out for me and I have learn a lot from him. He is one of the definition of my happiness today. Howard completes me and every time I see or think of him I get all lovey dovey. There is nothing better in this world than waking up next to the guy I am in love with. He is just AMAZING.  There are so many reasons why he is great and why I love him... It would take forever to explain. I LOVE YOU ! 

Favorite quote

Day four of  blog everyday in may challenge . It was really hard to pick a quote I love because there are so many, But this one is one that has really changed my life.

"My past is nothing more than the trail that I left behind. What drives my life today is the energy that I generate in my present moments."

This quote is from a book I read by Wayne W. Dyer. "Your Sacred Self" . This book has really taught me a lot about being free and making the decision to let go of my past. I remember this quote every time I catch myself thinking about what I should of done before. It reminds me of a Spanish quote "Lo que paso, paso". This quote reminds me that my past doesn't define the person I am today. My mistakes from before do not matter in my present moments. I have made a decision to no longer dwell on the past and no longer think about what I should of changed. Your past is like the wake behind the boat. If you ever seen a boat go by you will notice the wake it leaves behind. It can be gentle or turbulent, but whatever kind of wake it is, it has absolutely nothing to do with the boat driving forward. Its just whats left behind. Who you are is not any of the stuff that you have. Let the past go, and the future will be easier. If you tell yourself it’s too hard, then you won’t take it on. But right now, for most people, it’s almost an impossibility to do so, because they’re so attached to “I am what I have”; “I am what I do”; “I am what my reputation is”; or “I am all of this material stuff.” Letting go of the past can be hard, but if that all you hang on to than you will never move forward. Can the trail that is left behind make the boat go forward ? YOUR PAST IS OVER ! Many people refer to the good old day that are gone forever as the reason they cant be happy and fulfilled today. I am proud to say that my past will never define who I am and who I will be. No label ever define me. LIVE THE NOW ! NOW is what you have, Now is all you will ever get. You indeed have a past, but not NOW, You indeed have a future but not NOW ! Eliminate the words "then" and "maybe" ... LIVE UP THE MOMENT NOW !

Things That Make Me Uncomfortable :

One of my favorite blogger Jenni is hosting a link up for the month of may.. I probably wont be able to do it everyday, but I will sure so as many as I can.. I think this is a perfect way to keep my blog a little more interesting for my readers... (if I have any)
I have already missed Day 1 & 2 ... Lets do this !



Things That Make Me Uncomfortable :

1. My mom talking about intimate/sexual things in front of me. There are times when my mom (and grandma) tries to be funny and say inappropriate things. I try to block it out and ignore it. It leaves me with this AWKWARD feeling inside.  
2. Walking by groups of men. I think most "pretty girls" living in the Bronx, NY or any Hispanic neighborhood in NYC has to put up with men (older) who swear they still "got it" It uncomfotable having 40 year olds yell out that you have a nice ass or something like that. Walking by barbershops, bodegas with men playing dominoes, construction sites, ect.. has to be the biggest challenge when you don't have headphones. 
3. Talking about religion or politics. I like to keep quiet, even though I know a lot about both. 
4. Sitting next to a person who has a load of ear wax in their ear. 
5. Sitting on the train and the lady standing in front of me has a camel toe. Basically it happens all the time when I ride the subway. 
6. When other females stare at me. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT ?
7. Group interviews. I swear this is probably one of the things I hate about job interviews. I always feel like there is that one person trying to steal the spot light for everyone. 

Okay.. There you go.. top things that make me uncomfortable. There is many more but there are the ones that I feel like are on top of my list. 

HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE WEEKEND EVERYONE , XOXO !

May Goals

Happy Friday ! Its the third day of May and for some reason it is a bit cold in NYC. I think the weather here is super ridiculous, One day we have a sunny 72 degree weather and the next day it's below 50 degrees, just when you think it the perfect time to stock your coat in the closet you have to bring it back out ! Mother Nature need to get herself together ... nahmeannnnn ?

April was a pretty good month for me. I was not really online as much. I focused on getting my health together and communicating more with my boyfriend. I have to say April was a pretty productive month for me. I got back on my synthroid medication for my hypothyroidism, and that has really taken a toll on me. The side effects have been HORRIBLE !, after not having medication for 2 years its understandable, but they really have me feeling worse than before. I just have to wait till my body adjusted to it and everything will be back to normal in a few month. As far as school, I have been acing in all my classes. School has been my main focus so far.

And THEN THERE IS MAY ...
2013 has been going by pretty fast. It feels like it just started not too long ago and already we are on the 5th month ! It's MONTHLY GOAL TIME YAY !

May Goals:

1. Keep up with my medication
2. Keep up with my fitness plan
3. Be able to do at least 20 push-up by the end of the month 
4. Drink one gallon of water a day
5. Find a job 
6. Keep my grades up
7. Put my Nikon FM10 to use
8. Develop my films
9. Get back in touch with my old friends (be a bit more social)
10. Lay on the grass at Central Park (ENJOY NATURE)
11. SAVE MONEY ! 

I have a really positive feeling about May ! Cant wait to see what it has in store for me.

HAVE A GOOD DAY YA'LL !!