Dear Readers,

Dear Readers,

     I don't know how many of you there is, but I just want to say thank you for stopping by. I haven't posted much on here and my blog is far from popular in the blog world. Something that makes me happy is logging in everyday and looking at the views and stats I get per day. Even when I first started blogging and I had 3 views I was all giggity. I may not have the most followers or interesting stories but this is something I enjoy. I have thought about quitting a few times, but this is what keeps me in a good state. This past month I have been doing the blog everyday in may challenge and I have been reading so many interesting blogs. My blog has been more interesting cause of this challenge, but when its over I promise I will keep it interesting. I love writing, but I am still undecided on how much of my life I would share online. I have so many ideas, goals, other things I will be sharing through out my blogging experience. Thank you for taking out time to read my posts and STAY TONE FOR MUCH MORE !

Follow me on INSTAGRAM & TWITTER : @DOLCERUSH4L

Blog STALKER

I skipped yesterday's prompt, because I was having one of those days where I just didn't want anything to do with society, and I did not feel like blogging or even being social. I took the day off from the WWW.'s

I'm back to the link up today. Day 26, Sunday: Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you'd like.

Well, I have been stalking peoples life's for the past month due to this challenge, I have read about 50 blogs everyday and I have to say THERE IS PRETTY AWESOME PEOPLE OUT THERE ! By reading others blogs , I feel like I kinda know them already. I enjoy reading about other's lives and things they face on their daily basis. I have also learn so much from reading blogs. I kinda feel like a stalker now LOL !

My 3 Worst Traits

Ha !

My three worst traits that I try to avoid.. but I just cant

1. Moody - This will always be my biggest challenge, its so crazy how my mood can switch in .2 seconds. And its annoying when I notice it for myself. Sometimes i just cant help it. 

2. Procrastinator - HA ! this is how I feel right now. I'm actually pushing myself to blog right now. Anything that can be done tomorrow I will do it tomorrow. And sometimes doing thing when I don't want to gets me in a bad mood. I'm such a SLOTH !

3. Gullible - Yes, I can easily be tricked and I always notice after its been done. I think its just me always thinking people are genuine, until I see the true colors.. then its too late.

Things I've Learn That School Didn't Teach Me

Most of the thing I know today I've learned outside of school. In fact everything I know I've learn outside of school, because all my life I've been in a sucky public school system which teacher just care about their paychecks at the end of the week *Welcome to NYC*...

Honestly the only things I've learned in school are the basics, Math, English,Science, and History ...written on textbooks..which some don't even have the right facts.

Most of the things I've learn , My mom has taught me, I have experienced, I have observed others going through things, or I have looked up information on my own and learn the hard way.

School did not teach me :

• How to love myself
• How to take care of my body
• How to cook
• How amazing life is when you let go of the past
• How to love
• How your "close" friendships shrink
• How to save and invest
• Your not obligated to follow the crowd
• Its okay to be different 
• You can be your own boss, you don't have to work for anyone
• HOW TO LIVE LIFE ! 

I think we shouldn't expect much from schools, After all life and personal experiences are the best teachers.

Rant

Day 22. Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. 




Ahhh a perfect day to rant ! ABOUT INSTAGRAM and the FUCKERY that I see on there:

1. People on Instagram who post textgram like if its a facebook status or a tweet on twitter. ex: "eating breakfast in bed with my baby" ...go post that kind of thing on Facebook or Twitter or Tumblr. I usually get annoyed by textgrams. 
2. People who feel the need to be all public about their sexual desires on Instagram ! I don't wanna see ass and tits of bitches you will never have and photoshop bodies giving oral sex to a guy.. THAT IS JUST DISTURBING ! keep your sexual fantasies to yourself !! not the public. I don't wish to know how horny you are or what you desire. . Sex is something intimate and intimacy is suppose to be private. 
3. Stupid teen girls exposing their bodies and then expecting guys not to disrespect them. Is that really what your mother taught you growing up ? to flash your goods to the public? did you know pictures on instgram are being sold for money ? And then you call guys thirsty when the write comments on how they want you ... WHERE IS YOUR SELF RESPECT HOE ?
4. People who shout each other out just for more follows. I feel like I am on Myspace all over again. Why do you want so many followers ? what do you gain out of having 348327 people who don't know following you ?

ugh, Im just so over instagram..I done seen everything on there, from vagina to dicks to stupid hoes humiliating themselves and then crying about getting exposed. 

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY... just fuck it all. 

(excuse my language) 

Favorite posts

 Day 21 of the Challenge is a list of links to your favorite posts in your archives.

This is going to be a bit of a challenge for me because I recently just started blogging, so I don't have much. I have been blogging the most during this month , because of this challenge :p

But here it goes:

My favorite posts in my archive:

1. Lesson Learned
2. Falling in Love
3. Favorite Quote
4. A moment in Solitude

Struggles

I don't even know where to start, because right now I am thinking about 1,000 other things instead of today's prompt : Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now. And today is the perfect day to blog about what I am struggling right now.

As you may notice I missed yesterdays prompt. I had it in mind, but I was having a rough day and my mind was all over the place. I literally did not get up from bed yesterday. But here it goes , Day 19: 5 of my favorite blogs and what I love about them :

• So Shay
• Story of My Life
• The Daily Tay
• Uni The Peach
• Because Shanna Said So

These are my top 5 favorite blogs. They are actually the first blogs I started reading and these are the blogs I keep up with the most. These wonderful ladies inspire me so much.

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I blogged about my hyperthyroidism 2 days ago. And today I'm going to be blogging about my chronic condition of Hypothyroidism. Which is my DAILY STRUGGLE. My thyroid became "hypo" about 4 years ago after I went under radiation treatment to burn out my thyroid gland. If you would like to learn more about Hypothyroidism click here . I recently started taking Levothyroxine which is suppose to level out my hormone levels. I've been on it for the past 5 weeks and I have to say this medication has been my BIGGEST STRUGGLE EVER ! After 2 years without medication (because of my stupid health insurance) my body is still trying to figure out this crap. Its hard to explain what I am going through and what I feel to anyone who asks. I honestly feel worst then ever. I've tried to explain this to my doctor but all she says its normal. NO IT'S NOT NORMAL TO FEEL THE WAY I FEEL !  I'm struggling with severe mood changes, hair loss, small hives, muscle weakness, low energy, quivering, and anxiety. I have to deal with this everyday, not knowing which side effect want to take charge of the day. I feel like no one really understands my conditions. The sad thing is I have to drink these pills for the rest of my life and I have a high risk of infertility. I've been drinking pills since I was 7 years old and I swear to god, I AM TIRED OF IT !

Another thing I have been struggling with is my trauma. Last November (2012) a man tried to sexually assault me and rob me (I don't want to get into much details about that) After that experience I have been terrified of walking near men, or even being near men. I always feel like who ever looks and stares at me is trying to hurt me. I know its a bad thing because not everyone is the same, but I just cant help it. Every time I look back and I see a man walking behind me for more than 2 blocks i start to panic.

Today on my way to the doctor, I was almost near the last stop of the bus and I notice I was the only girl on the bus and there was 6 men on there too. I immediately got in a shock mode and started to panic. My stop was the next stop, but it felt like forever and a day to get there. So many things were going through my head and I rushed to the back door and prayed it opened quickly. I have been considering trying to find some help, even though it was offered to me in the beginning and I felt like I could of dealt with it on my own, but I was wrong. This is something that I struggle with everyday and I need help soon.